Trying to fly again..

Has it really been 2 years since we lost you, Kie? It seems like just yesterday sometimes...I was determined this year. I went to work, made it through the first half of the day, figured it was all down hill from there...Boy was I wrong! I tried to be strong for you Kie, I try everyday. Some days it is still too hard. I still long for the one-on-ones with you, just chatting and laughing...We went through so much...From barely liking each other, to going to each other for everything, to arguing constantly. What a carousel we rode! I still wonder sometimes, why was it your turn to get off? I may never know, but will always want you there, for all the events life has yet to bring, both big and small. Not just for my own selfishness, but also for Alexa and Tristan, and all the rest of us you left behind.I thought of this song today, and remembered Britney was always a favorite of yours. Some of it fits, some doesn't. But here's to missing you, babe.....

Everytime by Britney Spears

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess
I need you baby

And everytime
I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby

And everytime
I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime
I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby

And everytime
I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby